My T gave me a homework assignment: to write a letter to myself for when I get stuck in my feelings. The purpose of this letter was to challenge my negative and self-destructive thoughts. I agreed with her suggestion to post the letter here in my blog. (more…)
I have spent my entire life trying to be perfect. I try to make everyone happy and proud of me. (more…)
I don’t want death; that would be the absence of life. I don’t want to be in a comma; life would continue without me. I want time to stop. Tomorrow would not come. Time would just stay in this exact moment.
I could rest. I could just enjoy my surroundings. I could forget all the struggles I will face, all the effort I will have to put in for progress. My mind could go blank. Stress and anxiety would melt away.
I could just breathe.
I have over exerted myself trying to find appropriate mental health treatment. I am doing everything I possibly can trying to prove to my treatment team that I’m putting forth effort. But this effort has come at a price. (more…)