Death with Dignity

Assisted suicide… It’s not simply taking your own life, but being medically euthanized.

Of course there’s the moral aspect depending on your beliefs. Is taking your own life a sin? Is it murdering yourself? Well, that is a debate I wish to take no part in.

Then there’s the suffering aspect. Must people be required to endure an immense amount of suffering? Is there a limit? Is suffering mentally versus physically different? How can we judge what other people experience?

On November 2, 2014, Brittany Maynard died at age 29…via assisted suicide. She was diagnosed with terminal brain cancer and was told she only had six months to live.

In my opinion, she was a coward.

I do agree it was her choice to make. I agree that people who are terminally ill and suffering immensely deserve the right to kill themselves. I don’t think anyone should be forced to live in a vegetative state or to be in chronic pain. But that is not the case with Maynard. Her suffering had only just begun. She didn’t even seek out other options such as chemotherapy. She gave up. She is not a hero. She is not courageous.

It’s not fair. It’s not fair to everyone else. I suffer from mental pain. I have for 19 years. I have tried to kill myself twice. I am tired of my pain. But I fight to live! Everyday that I live, everyday I’m here on this earth, is a blessing to myself and to everyone in my life. Suffering has value. To kill yourself is to deprive yourself of value and lessons. Life isn’t about good things. Life is about surviving hardships.

Maynard didn’t survive. She didn’t even try. Her decision was truly selfish. She deprived herself and her family of valuable time. She couldn’t wait one more day? One more week? She didn’t give her family a chance to help take care of her, a way which would have helped them cope with her loss.

If I had been successful with a past suicide attempt, I would have missed out on many things. I would have missed out on my beautiful dogs, my fiance, my wonderful T and Pdoc, developing a relationship with my mom, and many many other things. I wouldn’t have had the chance to make a difference in people’s lives. And if I were to give up now, what would I be sacrificing? What miracle or joy would I not experience? Whose life will I miss out on? Is ending my suffering worth all the future possibilities? I CHOOSE to think not. I CHOOSE to value life. I do not know what happens after death. I would hope that there’s a heaven, but I do not know.

I do support assisted suicide, but I adamantly do NOT support Brittany Maynard’s decision. To truly die with dignity means to have tried to fight a losing battle. It means to make a decision before you no longer have a choice. Maynard still had choices. She did not die with dignity.