…Each Day As If It Were My Last

Recently, I have read different stories on people and children who are suffering from a terminal illness. It reminded me of how fragile life is and how much we take things for granted. Their stories have inspired me to try to focus on the positives of each day as if it were my last.

Since I suffer from daily suicidal ideation, I sort of live each day as if it could be my last. But instead of looking at all the beauty in life, I have been focusing on all the pain. And while I will probably suffer from mental pain for the rest of my life, I do have the ability to stop and enjoy life’s little pleasures. So I decided to buy two books to help guide me:

Q&A a Day: 5-Year Journal by Potter Style
The Happiness Project One-Sentence Journal: A Five-Year Record by Gretchen Rubin

I love writing, but without any structure, I tend to get lost in my thoughts. I’m hoping these books will provide me with the structure I need to make sure I remain positive. The journals are easy enough: one sentence response to the prompt, everyday, for 5 years. I can analyze the prompts or I can simply answer what first comes to mind. But at the very least, for those few minutes everyday, I will be looking at the brighter side of life.